how's it gonna be when you dont know me

right now i'm more angry than anything inside. i'm infuriated! how can you loook me in the eyes and tell me that you love me and you have sex with me. then two days later, start to have a change of mind like you woke up and decided that you dont want anything to do with me. how do you think that makes me feel. i will tell you since you are too fucking chicken shit to grow a penis and tell me, i will tell you how i feel. I am pissed i am fucking pissed. You can't come over and look me in the eyes and tell me that you dont want to be in a realtionship. you are a coward. you dont want to hurt me and you can't look at me in the eyes. that fucking hurts more than you realize. i am hurting inside. i can put a smile on my face and go on with my day to day routine, and i can keep myself busy but seriously i am fucking hurting inside. i feel like you have taken my heart and used it as a punching bag and then stomped on it and dropped it to the point my heart is shattered. i can't forgive you for that. you're a fucking cunt. you are getting rid of something you dont even realize! i'm sorry is a poor ass excuse. its an excuse......cowardly piece of shit. go fuck yourself. dont come crawling back to me when you want sex, dont come crawling back to me when you realize that you lost me, i'm done. i will remain your friend becuase no one else will be as forgiving as me. but there will no longer be any relationship past a friendship. you have severed anything that could come close to that.